Today was a real hash. For reasons I’m not going into I had to make a mad dash out and then an emergency appointment for tomorrow. All will become clear later, actually it’s just remove remove a bit of stress that could come laster. Anyway, this afternoon, little journey out to what turned out to be a nice lady to give an hours tutorial on Ableton. It was a success, well, I didn’t cock anything up. Weather she has learned anything or not is another matter, I think she found it all a bit overwhelming to be honest. Never mind, she’s paid, hopefully she’ll book again.

Tomorrow I have two appointments, the first one is at the STI clinic, it’s just a routine check, joys of being on PrEP, not that I’ve actually had much action recently.

First official night off the wine and cheese, fine so far, mind you I did end up working making up for lost time until almost the end of the day anyway.

So now everything socially is out of the way, well apart from one outing I can concentrate on my diet. So this week I’ve bought no wine, well okay the house is full of it, but not the cheap shit I buy from Aldi to drink during the week. And also no more cheese. I’ve got pretty much bang on four weeks to lose around seven pounds, bit of a tall order but a lot of that at the moment is just bloat. So full on exercise and watch what I eat, more importantly watch what I drink. I log everything anyway just to terrify myself constantly. Banning booze completely I know doesn’t work. So I can drink what I like (which will be lager as, as I said, no wine and I don’t do spirits at home) providing I can leave a four hundred calorie deficit at the end of the day, there is already a two hundred calorie deficit in the app (MyFitnessPal) so with the six hundred total it should hammer through the weight. The exercise goals are never an issue, I’ve done over a thousand calories today alone. So I have half a bottle of wine and two slices of cheese left, when it’s gone, it’s gone. Lets see how it goes.

So Friday at last minute (and due to a post by my ex. husband’s husband) I ended up booking a cheap ticket down at the Bristol Hippodrome for ‘The Wizard of Oz’. It was okay, ‘Wicked’ is far better, but the more annoying thing was that although I had a seat quite near the front in the stalls, in front was a giant bloke with a giant head. I spent the bulk of the time switching between looking one side of the other of it. Still not bad for thirteen quid.

Also I got my ‘birthday bus pass’ yesterday. Gives you free bus travel for the whole month, I like that.

So today I spent far too many hours charging up batteries and testing model helicopters. I’ve decided to sell the lot as they’ve just sat on a shelf for years gathering dust. They are quite cool, but harder to fly than the real thing (and yes I can fly the real thing). So I’m continuing to ‘eBay my life’. I have so much to get shot of and not really that long to do it in.

So the weekend when I was doing the accounts I checked on my pension fund, I did an end of year payment back at the beginning of March. It was nowhere to be seen. I found the confirmation email so no it went through. Contacted Standard Life, to be fair they got back to me within a few working hours. Apparently it was in their ‘suspense account’ and will be applied as soon as possible I wrote back and said that it wasn’t really growing in a suspense account, I had a quick reply to say it would be backdated, we shall see.

In other news I’ve managed to get acme.sh setup on the server and after buggering about with endless file permissions it’s produced a certificate. I need to play around with it a bit more as I’m not overlay happy at the moment, will have to probably run three cron’s, one for each web user and root to copy the certs to the correct place, will need to think on that one.

So walked the dogs and then finally did some cleaning (cleaners, whole different rant). Did some accounts stuff, but much more to do as it’s the end of the tax year. Walked into town, while doing so designed a complete financial planning spreadsheet in my head. This will give me the numbers I need so I know when I can retire.

Went to the Bristol Old Vic and saw ‘It’s a motherf**king pleasure’. Which was dark and very funny. It was all about ‘ablism’. Staged by two blind men (actually only one was blind as there was an understudy). Tomorrow there is more accounting to be done.

So I’m very good on measuring out the exact amount of wine. What I’m not so good at though is measuring cheese. Start with four slices. Then drink the wine. Then randomly slice more cheese. It’s like getting the munchies but without the drugs. Sleeping is still going fine.

Getting bored of being pissed on again. Took Sasha out lunchtime, big time hail stones. Got soaked. Went to the track this evening and got drenched. It seems to be pretty much everyday now.

So stuck to the plan last night and all was good. Managed to sleep no problem at all and had no bad head. Got to work reasonably on time and had a good day. Weather was shite as usual so managed to get the dogs out but beyond that didn’t get out until later this evening, meaning I didn’t get back in until almost bed time. Added my calories up and know exactly how much Pinot I can drink. Booked some culture for Saturday and if all goes to plan will go to the cinema tomorrow.

So I put on 4.3Kg which as a percentage of my body weight is quite staggering. Still, I now have six weeks to lose it all again. Decided to take a slightly different strategy, I don’t think it’s worth continuing with this ‘four days not drinking’ thing as all that’s happening is I’m not sleeping for four days. In Gran Canaria I slept great, although woke up with a bit of a head. So now I’m doing the trading game, I have to keep within a certain calorie range in MyFitnessPal. So the more exercise you do the more calories you have to spare, these can then be used on alcohol, may sound daft but there is a physical limit to how much exercise you can do and what you can eat, I’me very good with limits. Lets see how it goes over this week, I think going from what I was drinking in GC to zero would probably be very dangerous anyway.